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Hi everyone, I am new to these realms, but I’m a long-time researcher, first time writer. Firstly, let me apologise as I do tend to waffle, but I eventually get to my point, or question. I thought I'd write today given that there seems to be so much speculation and madness surrounding the society, it stands to reason the best place to ask is on a site like this. Although I hate the term conspiracy, thinking myself as a free thinker, most of the subject matter that I investigate does exist within the conspiracy spectrum, as colourful as it is, this being somewhere between the six and seven colours that now exist. It seems to me that a lot is going on in our age of technological wonder, although the veils of ignorance translate extremely well, certainly since the age of the internet which was born in 1969. Personally, I’m still unsure as to whether freemasons are what they purport to be, or they’re something to be extremely worried about, which is ultimately why I have never joined the Secret Society. Yes, I’ve been asked many times, and yes, I’ve had some wonderful evenings with my wife all dressed up in ball gowns and me in a dicky bow, but personally speaking, there’s just something not quite right about having to join something before finding out the inner sanctum, the tabernacle if you will. So, what’s put me off, not the people that’s for sure, many are very likeminded individuals, many I like very much, but there’s just a feeling that something isn’t quite right. It’s not the threat, as once was in days of old, of having my tongue cut out and being buried at low tide should I reveal any of the secrets which are bestowed upon me, it’s not even that I wouldn’t like to be part of something bigger, because I would, if not for what I would get from them, but what I might be offer it. Without going into any great detail, many years ago, one thing I didn’t like was being informed, by an extremely drunk member during one of the nights we attended, was that everything I needed to see was right in front of my very eyes, this information bothered me considerably. Being a curious person, this was the start of my path, up intel then, I had watched how members greeted one another, handshakes, gestures, a wink, a no, an upside-down reversed hand grab, which were all noted and stored in the grey matter. As I say, without going in detail, as a child I was watching TV, Warner Cartoons, I had a fit and died (seriously, six or seven minutes in fact), obviously making a recovery, this event was in 1973, then in 76 (aged six) I was visited by two people in school, they took me into the school hall and asked me a series of questions (interrogated me for the want of a better term), very odd questions indeed, using psychic tests, cards show in reverse, I saw wavy lines, a fish, a circle, amongst many others in my mind eye, then we moved onto Rubin’s vase, what could I see, a vase I replied, could I see anything else?, yes, yes I could, at the end of the session I was asked to Watch a Watch go back and forth Wondering what is meant. I think that day pretty much ruined my life! But that’s enough of my life story at that stage. Anyhow, many events have kept bringing me back to a road of discovery, for example, watching The Wizard of Oz as a child, Dorothy Follows the Yellow brick road, but I was the kid that wanted to know where the red road lead too?, and why was it Red, noting in the movie that the Good witch was of the North, whist in the book she was the most powerful sorceress in the land of Oz, and ruled over the Quadling (C)country south of the Emerald City? Again, through a strange set of coincidences I stumbled on Nikola Tesla and his 3, 6 and 9 way of thinking. This led to many, many great discoveries, The Golden Ratio, Fibonacci, Babylonia, The Seven Liberal Arts, plus the other five and three. Although depictions shouldn’t be trusted so I studied all seventeen, then moved up to the twentieth, notwithstanding tiling and a few others others. In any case I digress, it seems to me there is a battle going on, let’s say for the sake of reasons sake, that’s it’s a battle of circles and squares, or red and blue, odds or even, noughts (if they exist) and crosses, however you wish to picture it or describe it, obviously I’m not trying to give too much information away in fear of being thrown out of this site, like I did a few years ago for asking questions, for people need to understand, the challenge, for me, the fun and joy of everything in life, isn’t always in the answers, sometimes it’s in discovering the questions, questions can represent so much more than frustration in not having the answered. So, why am I writing all this, why bother, I’m neither a member of the fraternity nor a theorist, although to have a theory at least shows you have a mind, in my opinion, the problem is when the con gets into Con-spiracy, or into the Con-struction of an idea, a group or an organisation then information is likely to be withheld, and in many cases this information just may make civilisation a tad better, or worse, depending which side you’re looking at the number 6, to one observer they see number six, to another opposite they see a nine, neither is wrong, and both are right, but this is the sort of stuff battles are fought and people die for, there doesn’t seem to be anyone arbitrating the perspective, the obvious, the silliness of it all. Maybe this is the purple? With the above said, I wouldn’t say that I wouldn’t join the freemasons in the future, I have access to many members, but without some clear answers, and a reasonable and open conversation about what the bloody hell is really going on, I find my situation untenable. Let’ look at - T.V? Just what on earth is going on? The mechanics and mechanisms of Black and white was (is) simple to see, with the introduction of colour things moved on, Red and Blue in equal perspective, why could this be? well, you need to know how colour frequencies work, then mix in a heap of Hypnos, Monarch and Milk Weed, adding a splash of intent, then a pinch of one small step for man, one giant leap for Man Kind, and we have a recipe for “we the purple”, this is the pie that the battle of the ages produced, it proves a draw was called, a stalemate if you will, neither red, nor blue winning, both accepting equal proportions and a bite of the pie that is, you and me! In the movie where they talk of the ultimate answer, to the ultimate question, we’re told it’s Forty-Two. But is it? What could it mean? Music isn’t any better, it too is a sorry tale, people talk about the secret of 432 verses 440, but it’s not much is a secret is it? Quite honestly, I don’t know what all the fuss is about. The same goes with history, in the UK we have the battle of Hastings, 1066, Americans have 1776. Each have their moment, that one defining moment, for example, in Freemasonry hey have important dates, for example, when the first grand lodge was formed in England, and many, many, others that I could talk about but won’t just in case you lose interest, which I suspect you might already have, reading the writings of a madman, I’ve got to be mad right? I’m a theorist! A free thinker – A Hyper, are Hyper’s are Here to help? Maybe! Conspiracy, like all things, has its trends, not so long ago it was Antarctica, although science of old said we had six continents, this moved to seven when we started to understand the earth’s geology better, now we’re technological experts and know-alls we’re being told there’s eight, but personally I like to refer to Antarctica as the seventh. Even tour companies take you there now, in fact I am soon to book a trip with my wife with one of the most reputable of them all, my view is this, it’s like going into space, it’s a dangerous place, cold and uninviting, so in such instances would you go with a budget provider. Byrd says some interesting things about this place, and personally, I just feel the need to go, and this from a man who positively hates the cold. Another new one on the con scene is Ra, and the Law of One, but this isn’t something I’ll cover now as I have a great deal to say about this, but maybe I’ll write again covering this subject on its own, that’s if I’m allowed too, who knows?! Obviously, I could go on for hours, days, weeks, years writing about what is unfortunately rattling around in my mind, but I have to know, is there still a side to choose, is it a case that acceptance is futile and push on, or are people like me collateral damage?, and there is a lot of us, or maybe we’re just plain damaged? Me. Personally, I have faith in my life events, I gave up believing in coincidence many years ago, there is no such thing, ah’ you say, I believe in a higher power, well, maybe, but in my view this power is no higher than I am to myself, therefore, free will isn’t real, in this realm, there is only, if you will. These QQuestions have to be asked and answered, otherwise it has to be seen as insidious, not malevolent but benevolent, so which is important, and which are we fighting for, or fighting on behalf of? Is it life? Love? or humanity itself? A we know, there is some things you should know. Some things you must know. But there are other things you must never know. The latter of these three is the one I’m most aggrieved about, because this means that there is information out there that no matter how hard I try, or how much effort I put in, and how much more I become, there are those putting the same, if not more, into making sure I never find it out. Is this fair? Mr FG, could you please offer any advice or guidance for a soul that is in this sorry position?